If you could read minds for a day, would you?
This is a tough one. I’m not sure I’d want to. It on the one hand would be nice to know what people really think about you but on the other hand, if it wasn’t nice it would just hurt my feelings. I have a problem with self esteem and I’m not sure my psyche could take it if people thought really bad things about me. And it would be even worse if they said something nice to my face but then I “heard” them think something totally different.
I have long had people tell me I shouldn’t care what other people think and I probably shouldn’t but I can’t help it. I guess I want people to like me and that’s my form of acceptance.
Over the years I have tried to develop a “tougher hide” if you will but so far it’s still tender. You’d think after years and years of having people outright say mean and nasty things to me that I’d be over it but I’m not.
Being a large woman is in and of itself hard enough. Having people (sometimes complete strangers) remind you of that on pretty much a daily basis, is even harder. It’s not that you don’t realize you’re heavy you just don’t need people to constantly say anything about it. Lots of people don’t realize that just because you are heavy it doesn’t mean you are lazy. It doesn’t mean you eat constantly. It doesn’t mean you overeat on a daily basis. It doesn’t mean you don’t exercise. Sometimes it’s just the way you are. Some people do pretty much everything they can in order NOT to be heavy and yet they still are. I know this was going way off course from the original topic but I just wanted to get across that reading those kinds of thoughts going through people’s minds would not be a good thing for me.
So unless there was a filter that filtered out mean and hurtful thoughts (which would pretty much defeat the purpose) then I guess the answer is no, I don’t want to be able to read minds. I have a hard enough time with what people say to my face and usually what they think is much worse. How about you?